The scary and saddest part about depression for me is how invisible it is.
We all have them. The stories of what happened to us in the past; the trauma, the onset of mental illness, the break up, the major job loss, the divorce and the abuse. We tell these stories over and over and over again. We share them with friends, therapists, 12 step groups, yoga teachers, anyone […]
It’s my voice but it is never kind to me. They are my thoughts but they never support me. All is dark, I am trapped, my body no longer moves the way it normally does. I have tunnel vision and the tunnel is very dark and very scary. I lose my ability to feel […]
Sometimes it feels as though I make incredible progress with my dark emotions and past wounds and then all of a sudden I fall right back to what feels like my very first time dealing with my depression. Feeling disconnected from self is hard to explain. I feel no connection to my life around me, everything seems difficult […]
“Emotional pain is not just a psychological issue; it is a spiritual issue. Depression may or may not be a disease of the brain, but it is definitely a disease of the soul. Modern psychotherapy has taken up some of the slack, and yet it too fails to deliver when it doesn’t acknowledge the soul […]
One would think after so many years of weathering the storm of depression it would become less scary to fall into the deep, dark abyss….but it’s not. When the lows last for more than a couple days, the pain becomes so debilitating and heavy you fear that it’s never going to go away. You look outside at […]
Powerless at the Ocean.. Tonight I decided to take a solo trip out to Santa Cruz and stay at a hotel room on the beach to find out where I am at my deepest emotional level. The beach is where I am reminded that I am powerless over a lot of things in my life […]