It happens in an instant. The pain, the hopelessness, the fear and the angst. Life feels heavy, too heavy to deal with but you have to because you need to try to come across like everything is ok. And it couldn’t be more NOT ok. The fear lies in the center of your gut and […]
The scary and saddest part about depression for me is how invisible it is.
We all have them. The stories of what happened to us in the past; the trauma, the onset of mental illness, the break up, the major job loss, the divorce and the abuse. We tell these stories over and over and over again. We share them with friends, therapists, 12 step groups, yoga teachers, anyone […]
It’s my voice but it is never kind to me. They are my thoughts but they never support me. All is dark, I am trapped, my body no longer moves the way it normally does. I have tunnel vision and the tunnel is very dark and very scary. I lose my ability to feel […]
Ouch. I woke up in a lot of emotional pain this morning and I know exactly why. Last night I shared my past with a new friend of mine going into major detail of the traumas, the hurt, the despair and I basically felt like I relived each event. I felt my heart shatter into […]
Sometimes it feels as though I make incredible progress with my dark emotions and past wounds and then all of a sudden I fall right back to what feels like my very first time dealing with my depression. Feeling disconnected from self is hard to explain. I feel no connection to my life around me, everything seems difficult […]
“Emotional pain is not just a psychological issue; it is a spiritual issue. Depression may or may not be a disease of the brain, but it is definitely a disease of the soul. Modern psychotherapy has taken up some of the slack, and yet it too fails to deliver when it doesn’t acknowledge the soul […]
I know there is a force within me that lures me toward the light and yet there is a competing force that would keep me bound to darkness. When I am choosing to be in a state of fear, uncertainty or self-doubt, I am allowing the darkness to remain present. In order to get […]
“The practice of healing long-held suffering begins the moment you acknowledge the suffering is there” -The Universe Has Your Back For so many years I carried around unnecessary emotional baggage. I had resentments from my childhood, hurt from things that happened at school, pain from past rejection, heartbreak unattended to and so much more. Carrying […]
When I rack my brain to remember the last time I didn’t have depression I realize that I was 18 years old. Up to that point I was talkative, spirited, lively, bubbly and had so many plans for my bright future. I never missed my commitments, parties, school, dances, sporting events or any of it […]
Happiness, Love and Light 