The scary and saddest part about depression for me is how invisible it is.
It’s my voice but it is never kind to me. They are my thoughts but they never support me. All is dark, I am trapped, my body no longer moves the way it normally does. I have tunnel vision and the tunnel is very dark and very scary. I lose my ability to feel […]
I know there is a force within me that lures me toward the light and yet there is a competing force that would keep me bound to darkness. When I am choosing to be in a state of fear, uncertainty or self-doubt, I am allowing the darkness to remain present. In order to get […]
“The practice of healing long-held suffering begins the moment you acknowledge the suffering is there” -The Universe Has Your Back For so many years I carried around unnecessary emotional baggage. I had resentments from my childhood, hurt from things that happened at school, pain from past rejection, heartbreak unattended to and so much more. Carrying […]
One would think after so many years of weathering the storm of depression it would become less scary to fall into the deep, dark abyss….but it’s not. When the lows last for more than a couple days, the pain becomes so debilitating and heavy you fear that it’s never going to go away. You look outside at […]
It happened again. I fell down that same familiar dark hole and there was no light in sight. It was one of those days where the pain is so intense it sears through my heart, into my chest, down to my stomach and my body becomes numb with fear. I have been here before but […]
This week is Mental Illness Awareness Week and I came across this quote today which made me feel compelled to write. It reminds me that even though my world feels dark, scary and lonely when my depression comes on, that does not mean there is not something beautiful and light still present in my heart. When my mind […]