Ouch. I woke up in a lot of emotional pain this morning and I know exactly why. Last night I shared my past with a new friend of mine going into major detail of the traumas, the hurt, the despair and I basically felt like I relived each event. I felt my heart shatter into […]
I know there is a force within me that lures me toward the light and yet there is a competing force that would keep me bound to darkness. When I am choosing to be in a state of fear, uncertainty or self-doubt, I am allowing the darkness to remain present. In order to get […]
I finally heard it. The exact words that describe what happened to me when I was a little girl. “My spirit got broken.” When I heard someone say those words the other day, a whole new world of pain opened up for me when I realized that it was exactly it, the perfect description to […]
I have always been drawn to the Lotus Flower. The brightness, the clarity of it’s edges, the warmth and it’s flawless beauty, it’s always ‘spoken’ to my heart. When I first saw the quote, “No Mud, No Lotus”, I had no idea what it meant until I heard the story of how the Lotus flowers […]
It’s that time of year when all the magazines and posts on social media talk about “Be Who You Want To Be”, “Now Is Your Time to Shine, “This is YOUR Breakout Year, ”and the list goes on. I would read these articles about making lofty goals, being the best me, making a million dollars, […]
Today I received an email from someone who had read my article “Don’t Let Anyone Or Anything Dim Your Inner Light” on TinyBuddha.Com: Courtney, I want to thank you for the article. For the last few years I feel as though I lost my light. Almost as though I no longer have a soul. I’ve been trying […]
Powerless at the Ocean.. Tonight I decided to take a solo trip out to Santa Cruz and stay at a hotel room on the beach to find out where I am at my deepest emotional level. The beach is where I am reminded that I am powerless over a lot of things in my life […]
This week is Mental Illness Awareness Week and I came across this quote today which made me feel compelled to write. It reminds me that even though my world feels dark, scary and lonely when my depression comes on, that does not mean there is not something beautiful and light still present in my heart. When my mind […]
The definition of forever is: without ever ending; eternally Have you ever made a promise to do or not to do something, to love someone, or be committed to something/someone FOREVER? I think saying the word forever is a very steep promise. I believe it’s a word that one may not really have the capability to […]
Happiness, Love and Light 