We all have them. The stories of what happened to us in the past; the trauma, the onset of mental illness, the break up, the major job loss, the divorce and the abuse. We tell these stories over and over and over again. We share them with friends, therapists, 12 step groups, yoga teachers, anyone […]
It’s my voice but it is never kind to me. They are my thoughts but they never support me. All is dark, I am trapped, my body no longer moves the way it normally does. I have tunnel vision and the tunnel is very dark and very scary. I lose my ability to feel […]
Ouch. I woke up in a lot of emotional pain this morning and I know exactly why. Last night I shared my past with a new friend of mine going into major detail of the traumas, the hurt, the despair and I basically felt like I relived each event. I felt my heart shatter into […]
When I rack my brain to remember the last time I didn’t have depression I realize that I was 18 years old. Up to that point I was talkative, spirited, lively, bubbly and had so many plans for my bright future. I never missed my commitments, parties, school, dances, sporting events or any of it […]
The other night when I was going to bed, I told my fiancee that I was not sure I could “do another day like today.” He quickly asked me what I meant when i said that and I had to run away because I wasn’t brave enough to say it out loud….I can’t take pain like […]
I feel like I have this whole entire part of myself, 90% if I am being completely honest, that the world has never been exposed to. If I told you about the thoughts, the deep, dark, dreadful thoughts that can run through my head on any given day; I think those who have never suffered […]
Happiness, Love and Light 