“Do you ever wish you could unmeet someone?”

I came across this quote and it made me wonder if I truly did wish I could unmeet someone..

What it sparked for me was wondering; did I wish I could take away the experience of having my heart broken? 

After the first time it happened I swore I would never allow myself to feel that way again. I was broken. This was the person who was supposed to be in my life forever. Since it was my first time being in love, my walls were completely down and I trusted this man with my whole heart. I never imagined he would ever hurt me or walk away from me. 

When the relationship ended and he went away, my hope and faith I had in love went away as well.

I built a wall around my heart and I swore no one would ever get inside again.  I didn’t think I could ever survive pain like that in one lifetime. To have absolutely no control over the loss made me question what love really was.  Was it possible that you could allow someone inside and trust them 100% with your heart? My doubts outweighed my faith and I continued to believe it was not possible.

This is a very lonely way to live.

Garth Brooks sings a song entitled “The Dance” and one of the lines stuck out to me:

“Looking back on the memory of, the dance we shared beneath the stars above  

For a moment all the world was right, how could I have known you’d ever say goodbye 

And now I’m glad I didn’t know, the way it all would end the way it all would go 

Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain, but I’d of had to miss the dance”

That was it.”.I could have missed the pain but I’d of had to miss the dance”..If it never happened I would have never known what it was like to love so deeply. To fall without worrying it might end and to trust someone with my whole heart; it was one of the most amazing feelings I have ever experienced. I would not take it back for the world.

On my spiritual journey I am learning how important it is to let my walls come down and to trust again. 

Do I wish I could unmeet this person? No, because I’d of had to miss the dance….

 

 

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