Waiting For The Storm To Pass

One would think after so many years of weathering the storm of depression it would become less scary to fall into the deep, dark abyss….but it’s not. When the lows last for more than a couple days, the pain becomes so debilitating and heavy you fear that it’s never going to go away. You look outside at […]

Rebuilding Self Worth With Depression

Today my depression reared it’s ugly head and all I wanted to do was disappear. It was one of those days where my brain turned on me and an ugly truth came to the surface. The downward spiral came around quick much like a torrential rainfall that turns into a terrible storm. I couldn’t move. […]

Goals And New Years Resolutions When You Suffer From Depression

It’s that time of year when all the magazines and posts on social media talk about “Be Who You Want To Be”, “Now Is Your Time to Shine, “This is YOUR Breakout Year, ”and the list goes on. I would read these articles about making lofty goals, being the best me, making a million dollars, […]

Tolerating The Pain Of Emptiness: The Passage That Started My Spiritual Journey

It was a cold, rainy and dreary day in San Francisco. The weather outside matched exactly how I felt on the inside, miserable. I was at an emotional, physical and spiritual rock bottom and I saw no end to this state of being in sight. I was hopeless and seemingly powerless to the life I […]

Trusting Life’s Roadblocks

Powerless at the Ocean.. Tonight I decided to take a solo trip out to Santa Cruz and stay at a hotel room on the beach to find out where I am at my deepest emotional level. The beach is where I am reminded that I am powerless over a lot of things in my life […]

When The Dark Consumes You

It happened again. I fell down that same familiar dark hole and there was no light in sight. It was one of those days where the pain is so intense it sears through my heart, into my chest, down to my stomach and my body becomes numb with fear. I have been here before but […]

The Dark Wave

The Dark Wave Just like knowing that every minute or less at the beach a wave will roll in….This is the way I look at my depression, a wave I know is going to come no matter what medicine I take or how much I wish it away; it will continue forever. I have no […]

Building My Sacred Space

“You must have a room or certain hour of the day, where you do not know what was in the morning paper..a place where you can simply experience and bring forth what you are, and what you might be.” -Joseph Campbell First of all, most people may wonder, “What is a Sacred Space?” I think […]