Seeking The Light Within

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Today I received an email from someone who had read my article “Don’t Let Anyone Or Anything Dim Your Inner Light”  on TinyBuddha.Com:

Courtney, I want to thank you for the article. For the last few years I feel as though I lost my light. Almost as though I no longer have a soul. I’ve been trying everything to get it back. I started to think I was crazy until I read your story and realized that I Was not alone. I have to ask you though. Do you think its possible to get your light back once you’ve lost it? Thank you!

Here is what I believe to be true.

I think when we realize we have lost our inner light it is because things outside of us start to create our reality within us. 

People pleasing, fear based living, mental illness, addictions, anything that can make us question our self worth. The light starts to dim and we begin to move further away from our true authentic self. We never questioned our worth until other people started telling us things that we believed to be true. 

The way we perceived situations when we were treated badly or deeply hurt, thats when we started to believe these untrue messages about ourselves. Our natural response is to sink into fear and that is when our self worth begins to make a decline.

The inner light is now covered up because we lost track of love. Our soul becomes a dark hole that we desperately want to fill back up to where we used to be when fear wasn’t running the show. We are lost and we do think we are going crazy because we know this is not who we are intended to be. We search for happiness and look to others for approval and love so that we can fill this hole up but the only person who can do that is you.

That’s the journey. That’s what the great poet Rumi means when he says, “If light is in your heart you will find your way back home.”

That is what the pain is trying to tell you, that is what suffering arises from, our fear our assumptions that we are not good enough.

Begin challenging your own assumptions. Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in awhile, or the light won’t come in. -Alan Alda

6 thoughts on “Seeking The Light Within

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story. My life has been very similar. So many bad things happened to me. I’ve been suicidal, one abusive relationship after the other, health problems, so much more. I was in this complete isolation that made me feel safe, after a divorce, to finally leave bad relationships. People scare me. Then I thought I had my wonderful future finally under control, my HighSchool sweetheart came back into my life, proposed marriage, great future plans….until he downgraded the proposal to friends with benefits, but continued making, this time joint business plans for future. I thought for sure everything was going to fall in place, until he suddenly moved another woman in his house. Devistation is an understatement, more like complete self destruction. So I just googled “finding your inner light” and found your story. Thank you so much for sharing.

    • Hi, I am so glad you shared with me. When it seems like life is pouring on the painful experiences that is when we are being forced to grow and look at our self worth and get back to ourselves. If I can share this, I would be grateful that you were shown your HS sweethearts true colors before marrying him because it saved a lot of heartache down the line. The Universe is nudging you and forcing you to find your strength and you can. I am sending you lots of love and remind you that wisdom is nothing but healed pain. Best, Courtney

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