Today I received an email from someone who had read my article “Don’t Let Anyone Or Anything Dim Your Inner Light” on TinyBuddha.Com:
Courtney, I want to thank you for the article. For the last few years I feel as though I lost my light. Almost as though I no longer have a soul. I’ve been trying everything to get it back. I started to think I was crazy until I read your story and realized that I Was not alone. I have to ask you though. Do you think its possible to get your light back once you’ve lost it? Thank you!
Here is what I believe to be true.
I think when we realize we have lost our inner light it is because things outside of us start to create our reality within us.
People pleasing, fear based living, mental illness, addictions, anything that can make us question our self worth. The light starts to dim and we begin to move further away from our true authentic self. We never questioned our worth until other people started telling us things that we believed to be true.
The way we perceived situations when we were treated badly or deeply hurt, thats when we started to believe these untrue messages about ourselves. Our natural response is to sink into fear and that is when our self worth begins to make a decline.
The inner light is now covered up because we lost track of love. Our soul becomes a dark hole that we desperately want to fill back up to where we used to be when fear wasn’t running the show. We are lost and we do think we are going crazy because we know this is not who we are intended to be. We search for happiness and look to others for approval and love so that we can fill this hole up but the only person who can do that is you.
That’s the journey. That’s what the great poet Rumi means when he says, “If light is in your heart you will find your way back home.”
That is what the pain is trying to tell you, that is what suffering arises from, our fear our assumptions that we are not good enough.
Begin challenging your own assumptions. Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in awhile, or the light won’t come in. -Alan Alda